today's rainy day thoughts

I've been reflecting recently on that.... that we dont have to do anything but be obedient to God and wait on & trust Him. That we are so helpless without Him in EVERY circumstance. Sometimes I feel like we have this delusion that we can accomplish something on our own and all we need is a little dusting of magic God fairy dust for it to work. And then we get judged by others if we arent always busy busy busy and putting together some kind of well oiled machine of a church program that spits out really impressive results... That He doesnt want that. He wants our hearts. He wants our hearts that are broken for Him.

C.S. Lewis said that "He who has God and everything else has no more than he who has God only." I feel like I have been learning this the hard way in the past few months... lots of drama & trauma & loss... but our God is and always will still be GOOD. I'm learning that as I go through this... trying to find those pieces of God's goodness in the mess and chaos. Trying to rejoice in suffering (its not REAL suffering I dont think. Just the cushy American kind ;) rejoiceing because I know it produces perserverance, patience, character, & hope- the kind that doesnt dissappoint because it is in God!

My heart has been on God's pottery wheel over the past few months... What a great and horrible thing to be in the Master's hands! Horrible because it hurts and is not comfortable and sometimes we FREAK out because we dont think we can bend that way... Great because we can trust our God. We can trust that He has our best in mind. This journey is exciting... and the product it creates is a unique, beautiful, and perfect thing. And when its finished the work is presented to God... this finished work that God has done all by Himself. The beautiful thing about this is that when God's masterpiece in us is finished it is not a piece of art that sits on a shelf to be looked at or forgotten. No, it becomes more alive and more in relationship than it ever was before! Who is like our God?! There is no one.